It's been a while...

Yes, it has certainly been a while, and my poor blog has been left all abandoned.
It happens. This blog has rested, and so have I.

Actually, so much has happened in the last couple of months since my little 'crash' that I haven't been able to really assimilate all that has been going on.

I do feel as if I'm crawling back out from under a rock, squinting at the sun, going "Wow, check out all this life that is waiting out here. How did I miss it?"

Recovery is always a bit tricky, especially if it is more on a mental /emotional level, and not just physical.
It's tricky because you think that you have got so much further that you have, think that you have dealt with past experiences (like the breaking up of a marriage) and it's all full go ahead.

Then, you realized you moved too fast, and you have to back up the truck, slow it down, breathe and actually face it full on.
And what's great about it? It's never as bad as you thought it would be. It's almost the opposite. Is this all it was? Then you tick the 'accept' button, and THEN you move on.

Slowly, without rushing into things you thought would be just excellent for you, but isn't.
I realize I'm being a bit vague about stuff, but really, it's a bit personal... : )

Now I don't like dwelling on the past, I don't think it's healthy at all. People spend far too much time on the past experiences, which are only that. Past stuff. Nothing to do with the future, really. But sometime I think we need to learn from it. Grieve over things that ended, and fully get over it. And it doesn't have to take long, or maybe it does. Who knows. There are no rules. You make the rules. If you want to spend the rest of your life getting over something, then do it. Whose business is it really?
People won't like it, and they have opinions, but one thing I have learnt, and that is no matter what you do, or think or say, there will always be a person with an opinion about it. And it has nothing to do with me. It's about them.

So, one absolute positive is that now I am able to write again. Yuss.

And able to make time for it, and refusing to push it away for all the 'other' stuff that is always more important, like the Responsibility For Everything. The RFE is crushingly heavy at times.

Anyway, life is a bit like that, there will always be good stuff, there will always be 'bad' stuff, hard stuff, new stuff. The key is how you handle it when it happens.
That you know who you are. That, even if you don't like who you are at certain times, you can accept it, not judging, and move on.

Anyway, I'm off to sit in the sun and rest some more. Wicked and wild ideas come when I do.
And I do like that.